previously on Useless Ramblings...

I said I wanted to
OK sounds good, but I'm shy, awkward around strangers, a bit of a wallflower and not the best at meeting peoples eyes. This is my ASD trait (autistic spectrum disorder) for some reason I would rather eat dirt than look you in the eye, I think Alec makes more eye contact with people than I do.

I excel at avoidance. As I had a shower this morning, that place where I am friends with everyone and can compose witty and well commented upon blog posts so we aren't talking reality here, my shower exists in that land of "IF" If I was braver/younger/thinner/more talented where we all exist at one time or another during the day, that is unless you are brave, thin, young and talented which would make you a melded stuck together mutated version of Donna Downey and Ali Edwards.

So back to stronger bonds, how do I do it? I feel I could do a bit more work to make these deeper stronger friendships but lets face it we only have so much time in a day, so much of that is surrendered just to that mind numbing revolting stuff like laundry and grocery shopping and emptying the dishwasher. I have friends who excel at these tasks and enjoy them, I also aspire to be them when I grow up as well as the mutated Ali and Donna number

My big excuse is always that I don't want to disturb people so I put off that call or that email, maybe that is where I will start I think.

all this because I can't find my corner rounder

*edited to say* I exchanged 2 SMS with Lis and 3 emails, called my friend Ali who lives around the corner and called my mum, I also checked my email 11 times but you are all obviously busy somewhere else LOL