Thursday, August 18, 2005
Some days I cry
Today is one of those days.

This last week has been an unfolding tragedy, looks like I have diabetes, after struggling through 2 pregnancies with gestational diabetes it has caught up with me a lot quicker than I anticipated. Riley has been..Well Riley. I don't know how to handle a toddler that is so needy and demanding, one day last week I sat and held him all day, if I went to do something he held onto me. Nothing has changed in the last 22 months with him, and I have a rotten cold and sore throat.

On a really high note dad and mum offered to help pay for Alec's sheep therapy, that is just so amazing and means so much to us, speech therapy costs us $75 a week. We also got our family assistance supplement payment and I am going to buy Riley a new bed and decorate their room and put a nice chunk aside in a savings account for school fees next year.

It will be so nice to go shopping today, wish I had someone to shop with
Friday, August 12, 2005
Today is a low day
I have already eaten 4 squares of fruit and nut chocolate and 1 custard filled profiterol (it was really yummy) Thursday is no longer a re-charge day unfortunately, we take Alec to speech therapy every Thursday now, I pick him up from day-care. Yesterday Michael was off so we did a few errands and had some lunch, by the time we got home again it was almost a 1/4 to four.

Today I might just sit and watch tv or play trains with the boys and try and do a load of washing or 6. Just as I was being good and hanging wash on the line the rain is going to set in for the next week.

Scrapbooking seems to be a memory from the past, I must buy some more photo paper, I always do better when I can print my own photos. I am going to try and do some this evening and maybe Sunday afternoon also, Michael did want to invite people for coffee and cheesecake so I will see what happens.
Monday, August 08, 2005
Tickle me elmo
I feel a great desire to buy Riley one of these from ebay, I might google him up and see how much he would be in the shops, I hate being ripped off by ebay. Right now there is a flood of cast aside elmo's available for purchase, I have tagged a few that still shake as that was Riley's favourite bit. We saw one today at morning tea and it was the only thing he would de-cling for.

Speaking of the clinger.. he hasn't had a sleep yet so in an hour or so he will be 10 times worse, I can't actually see how that can be possible though but I'm sure it is.

This week he is in love with Hermione Granger from Harry Potter and poor princess Leia has been cast aside, hope he makes up his mind soon or goes back to Star Wars as I had planned to do a Star Wars birthday party for him.
What's on this week...
Monday: Brighton morning tea
Tuesday: playgroup
Wednesday: lets talk playgroup
Thursday: boys in daycare
Friday: trip to fun station
Sunday, August 07, 2005
Braced for rejection
The scrapbooking memories masters will be chosen
Scrapboxx forum's new design team member will be chosen

I have applied for both, I expect my masters stuff to be returned some time this week along with my thanks but no thanks letter.

I'm not pregnant and I haven't been paid for my first scrap-bitz order, I am now out $100 something dollars and have a completed second order sitting here, not happy Jan

On a happier note we are off to brunch at friends this morning, I would have liked to go to the craft fair too but didn't feel like making the trip alone.
Friday, August 05, 2005
I know if I move
they will hear me...

how wicked, I am letting Riley watch brum to keep him quiet while Alec sleeps

Earlier I did some exercises with Alec, I didn't break them into groups I just wanted to see if he would follow directions from me like he did from the speech therapist... the answer is not really, it didn't help that Riley wanted to do it too and was a distraction, which I knew would be the case. I really want to do something with him everyday my greatest worry is that this will hold him back at school somehow. I think we might have to keep the big exercises for evenings after Riley goes to bed, other exercises we can do all day when we have conversations.

A full diagnosis hasn't been made yet, they was to see more of his behavioral patterns in action.

sigh, I promise I wont cry at therapy sessions again, it just confused Alec.
Thursday, August 04, 2005
The boys go to a local daycare that was owned by one company and then sold to another 6 months ago (of 3 letters appearing on a current affairs program tonight) They stuck up a notice this week saying all non working parents please pick up your children by 4:30pm (so we can still charge you for an 11 hour day but gut our staffing to the bare minimum) I am so pissed and it is awful because the boys love it so much and the staff are just wonderful, I hate seeing this nasty company chewing up this lovely daycare centre. I can tell you what will happen, they will close it down :(

Michael wants to see what happens but I think we should pull them out, especially considering we now have weekly speech therapy sessions for Alec at $75 a pop
I'm not entirely thrilled
with this template, I don't much care for the box around the images, I shall have to take a few others for a test run and see how I like those, it means tinkering with the code all over again though.

In the olden days, you know 2003 I wrote all this myself, now I just don't even let the thought cross my mind. I have fallen so far behind now it isn't funny. At one stage this would have bothered me but as I now have 2 small boys the thought of sitting writting and tweaking code until 4am doesn't hold the appeal it once did.

Funny that
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
512th thoughts
Image hosted by As Riley stands beside me screaming I am wondering if it is wise to have another baby.

He is terribly cute though.

I'm going to have to finish this later, he is wailing and trying to insert a CD into the other computers floppy drive while asking for milk, which if I give to him he will not drink.
Something went wrong somewhere
For the life of me I don't know how I manage, I have so many 1/2 and 1/4 done projects and yet I manage to take on more on a weekly basis. I still have 3 circle journals sitting and staring at me from the shelf, I just can't seem to do them, I KNOW I must, but I don't WANT to, I'm going to do another tomorrow afternoon when the boys are at daycare and another on the weekend.

I completed my second order but it doesn't look as though it is going to be delivered... lets leave it at that shall we. Scrap-bitz may have a very short life as a business. For starters they are so labour intensive and after 5 hours work on the weekend I have RSI in my right hand, no fun is being had at all.

On a lighter note it is day 27 and 12 DPO, here is the link to my chart, all the signs are saying that this month isn't the one .